If i am granted with a wish
i would like to keep my heart temporarily in a box
lock in a locker till STPM is over
being a heartless person
coz i am easily affected by things happen around me
n is hard for me to ignore them
my EQ aint high...
for the moment..
i would rather be emotionless instead of being emotional
but...
i noe i cant =S

What u see/hear Vs The Truths

Ppl...including me...
we all r excellent story creater
coz most of us...believes in what we see...
We believe tat what we see is the truths
n start assuming everything
link small things together
Tada~
a story is done...
n assuming we noe everything bout it...
but what r the truths behind all these 'pictures' or 'images' u see with ur naked eyes??


Ppl also tend to like to assume what they hear r the truths...
"you" could be you, you or you...
"he" could be he , he or he...as long as he is a male...
same goes to "she"
when ppl we r close with writing something on FB or MSN...
n tat person din specifically mention who he/she mentioning...
we will automatically put ourselve into the situation to see whether is us or not
eg. " i'm pissed off, thx to you!"
n let say u argued with tat fren a day ago...when u see tis...will u assume tat "you" is u?? it's possible tat she actually mentioning someone else ... what if she argue with her sis? her mom?? or bro?? or other frenz??

perasan?? many of us hav it...
but dun 100% believe wat u see / hear is rite...coz it's stupid if u get crazy over it..n it turn out to be another person tat ur fren is mentioning...
n NEVER assume wat u see is rite n judge a person from who they mix with...u might easily hurt a person juz by saying..."u r a gang with them...so u r the same.." u nvr noe..=)

Rational Vs Emotional

i've a habit
which is talking to myself in my inner heart
n i have been doin tis from time to time

there's two side of me talking to each other
> rational side
>emotional side

in every circumstances...emotional side always come first..
whenever the emotional side affects me so badly till my mood swings
rational side will interfer

for the past two weeks...
i burst for something i kept in heart for months
n tell no one
as i could no longer bare it anymore...coz its exceeding the limit i could bare
finally, told few of them bout it...
as the emotional disease kept attack me n i dunno wat to do
i kept thinking tat i was bad...
i should not think or look at ppl tis way
coz tat person did ntg wrong
is juz the way i judge ppl from some silly stuff..
n when jealousy attacks..
my judgement could be bias..
but tt person is someone i care so much
n nvr allow ppl to hurt her
how can i allow such thoughts to affect my friendship?
rational n emotional started the war
i thought i will lose tis war
yet...i've overcome it
n came out with new theories n understandings
changed my way of viewing stuff
n jealousy is not longer exist as a factor
things tend to bak as normal as usual
though...i dun think she realise tt 'something' happen on me..xD

when i thought everything is on the right track
n i can focus on studies but nothing else
"things" juz dun allow me to do so
new "things" approach me
i wish i could ignore these stuff
but it juz so obvious n u cant act u dunno anything
how am i suppose to response to such things??
hahaz...seems like...another 'war' gonna begin soon...xD
however, something does confuse me
n i am uncertain bout tat...

somehow...i figured tat lately i dun really like to tell ppl every single thoughts in my mind...
nt even best frenz...
perhaps my mind tell me is not right to hav such thoughts
n i myself think is ridiculous too...
so is btr left unsaid..

lately, i also feel tat i dun like to get involve in other ppl's stuff anymore
is not really tat appropriate to interfere n telling ppl wat ppl should do
coz...in their mindset
they already set what they want to do..even if u wanna ask them change direction..somehow..they will still turn the steering bak to the usual direction...so wats the point?? mentally support is all they need...n will be there when they needed me..