Busy busy & busy~
skul reopen d....since holiday busy with projects till now...busy with many other things else...
T.T
busy with HW, projects , activities, & bla bla bla....
realised that i don't have enough time for everything
now upper six d...need to involve in more activities to gain marks...
need to study harder to score well...
but still cant totally focus in studies...
distracted by something else...
kinda lost...
why is it so tough to make a fix decision??
should be more firm with my decision...
can i just leave all these aside??
it's torturing...
torturing my mind...
i hope that...you will try to give urself a chance to change....
u'll nvr be able to walk out from the small room or urs if u never ever try to step out of it...
coz u keep saying u cant...
how do u expect ppl to give u chances when u dun giv urself chances??
why is it so hard to make u understand all these...
when only will u understand & think without having ppl tell u about it?
will this happen? it will not...if u r still who u used to be...
nothing will change...if u never change..
trying to change ourselve is hard...but nothing is easy....
stop giving all sort of reasons for not changing..
i dun like it...
nothing will change...if u never change....


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some weird thoughts in my mind

wats our purpose of living?
wats our purpose of working hard?
work hard study hard for?? money????
why need to earn so many $?? for the sake of living??
for the sake of living a better life??
better life for human...at the same time...destroying other ppl's life and other livings' life?
dun like to read newspaper nowadays...
murders
boms
killing
accidents
natural disasters
diseases

human
animal
forest
died / destroyed
it's just so heartbreaking

it makes me think...
ppl work hard for? earn money for?
human wan power for?

wat i want to be in future?
used to be dentistry...why? earn money..earn lot of money...
but now.....think back..
for wat??

money...useless...
money is just something destroying the world..it is the primary reason for all these things

so...why am i studying? earning other ppl;s money in future...?
it no longer will be the reason why i should study...
not anymore
human/animal/environment
these should be why i am studying biology
but i am only a human
wat can i do?
i got to choose.
i feel so useless...n feel i am so small...
wat can a human do to this world?
i will try to be do as much as i can..in future
i promise to u..the earth..

stupid human look around u...
stop fighting for politics n religion...
the world is dying....
coz of us...human.....